I’m really not very good at looking after myself. I’m overweight, very overweight, I don’t move enough, I eat when I am sad, and I eat when I am happy and, if I am being honest, I am a bit of a scruff who describes herself as a tomboy. I never make time (or enough time) for myself and I always seem to put me and my health last. For someone who is so focused, determined and driven, I just cant seem to get my act together regarding getting myself fit an healthy. As for some form of skincare routine – forget it – all I’ve been managing for the last decade (probably more like two decades) is a packet of Nivea wipes being thrown into the shopping trolley every couple of weeks. The time had come I told myself – Get Off Your Tush Lee and Get Your Act Together!
Enter stage left Sandra Peirce – we became friends when she joined Welshot on the Business and Bloggers Membership package (later to become The Kiwi Social) and there was no getting away from it – Sandra thought my routine, or lack of routine, was, quite frankly, appalling to say the least.
Trouble is, I don’t want to be, a scruff that is, and it’s taken me a long time to realise that I’ve been hiding behind some issues about how I feel about myself – Plain and simple, I don’t value myself (although it is beginning to change with the help from Sandra, Paula, Jenny and a good friend Chloe who is motivating me to move more) enough to think I am worthy of nice clothes, nice makeup and certainly not a good skincare routine – why would I, should I, bother about all of that when I was overweight and not happy in my own skin and didn’t like what I’d done to myself.
When I turned 50 I sat myself down – Just what did I want, who did I want to be, what did I want my style to be – my personality, for those that know me is BIG – but my clothes and my makeup rarely reflected that, and I realised what it is I wanted – Big, bold, bright, colourful clothing is what I wanted to wear, and wear with confidence. My good friend Paula Cain of the Chester Costume House very kindly started to make some bespoke pieces for me and I loved them – but my old fears came to the fore and I hid them at the back of the wardrobe, telling myself I was saving them for best, but when in truth I was scared to wear them – worried what people would think. What is a woman of my size doing wearing such beautiful, tailored, bright, bold, colourful and, god forbid, patterned material. Didn’t she know she should be wearing black and baggy clothing?
I struggle with my weight – yes, it has to do with what I eat, and how much I don’t move but it is more than that, as in a lot of people in my situation it has to do with what happens in the mind as well… And herein lies the problem.
Sandra Piece of Looking Good Naturally – who is a Tropic Ambassador and an Environ Skincare Expert was fast becoming a good friend – Sandra is someone I look at and admire and wish… Oh did I wish – The more I got to know Sandra the more I trusted and listened to her. Valuing her opinion and expertise because, by heck does Sandra know some stuff when it comes to skincare and makeup.
I was due to attend a Social Media Conference in San Diego and thought this would be a great opportunity to get some stuff sorted – I knew I was going to be well out of my comfort zone on many counts – I might as well go the whole hog and take a whole new wardrobe and makeup routine with me to see how it went.
I asked to ask Sandra to help me before I flew off – I wanted a good, simple, easy to manage makeup routine that I could easily do myself. Fortunately for me, Sandra was more than willing but it was made perfectly clear to me, it had to start with a good skincare routine – Morning and Night.
Taking me in hand and assessing my skin type she set off by showing me some wonderful products – yes, wonderful I could immediately feel a difference, my skin was singing, not screaming like it would when I used a Nivea wipe. I immediately placed my order for the entire range.
Cleanse, Tone, Moisturise – simple, easy to do and a few extras like the once a week scrub and the Super Greens Serum and Elixir Oil.
I have the travel set as well as a set that I now keep on my bedside table and every day I tell myself two things – Lee, you’ve paid for this, don’t waste it and Lee, you are worthy of nice skin – no matter your weight. I’m also telling myself the same about all the beautiful clothes I’ve had made and bought too. No saving them for best, no hiding away waiting for me to lose the weight – I am learning to be happy in my own skin…
In the hope that I inspire just one person or maybe help someone who’s feeling like me – I have decided to write about my journey, from Scruffy Kiwi to, well, maybe a not so scruffy Kiwi who has the confidence to be herself.
I hope you will join me – next week it’s about my face getting electrocuted… 😉
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Featured Image: Lee in Venice on a recent Welshot Adventure – taken by Chris Couchman